Have you ever seen the old Superman movies? The ones with Christopher Reeves and the ‘before CGI’ action stunts? I sure hope so because I am about to reference them this whole blog post. There is a scene where these bad guys are banished into outer space, and the way this is portrayed, is that they’re inside a pane of glass or a mirror thing. When I was a kid I used to be amazed at how three people could fit into a mirror. How could they be so flat?
Well, I no longer wonder.
Today I feel very flat. Flat enough to fit into the mirror with those bad guys. Now a trip through space wouldn’t be a bad thing, although three bad guys (and a girl I think?) for company wouldn’t be ideal. But when has anything ever been ideal?
I am not happy nor sad, I am not angry or upset. I have just lost my personality. It seems to have disappeared. To be honest as it stand right now it would be me, I would be the one sucking the fun out the mirror space journey adventure with the bad guys and maybe girl.
I have been unenthusiastic, apart from one moment when I tried to gee up a kid who was a bit lethargic. I have started to feel myself becoming cold and the affection has gone. Its a day when I feel alone but also that I want to be alone. And I am. My girlfriend isn’t here tonight and I am not doing anything social. Or anything at all.
Maybe I just need to recharge. I often wondered if there were tanks for the different emotions, like a tank for affection, for humour, for excitement etc. Maybe they’re running low (if they exist). If so, how do I even refill them?
On the whole though I’m ok, in the exact way it is meant. Actually ok. not great, not bad, just ok. How are you this evening?
P.S Items left to buy for the ball: Shoes, Bow tie, pocket square and a belt. If you follow me on twitter you can join in the wonderful journey as I monotonously scour cheap clothing stores for bargains.