It finally arrived! It’s here. 3 weeks of waiting, 3 weeks of anticipation. You can call off the search party, because it’s finally here. All hail! Self doubt! It has been a long journey for our plucky visitor, emerging like a weary vessel through the haze of a mystery dock. I had began to wonder where it had got to.
Obviously, self doubt isn’t a new thing in my life. I’ve had it before, and it has had the better of me before. It has prevented me from doing many things, it can be quite the debilitator. The problem it has this time however, is that I am prepared. I’ve been expecting you. You see, in battle, predictability is not a great quality to possess.
I’ve been writing every day for 3 weeks and it was only a matter of time before it appeared. But what can be done? how can you defend against such a thing?
Well when it hit me today, it was like a quick blast of a cold hose on an even colder day. It was only for a second, but it only needs to be on for a second, as I remained drenched for hours. I was soaked in it. This, all because I write words and put them on the internet.
But as I said, I was prepared. The reaction, albeit a slow one, is just a reminder that this, is working. A monster screams loudest when it is about to die*. In fact if anything, it has motivated me to write more, 3 times a day, 5 times a day, I don’t care. It won’t win. S0 aside from the metaphysical comparison and over the top commentary, there maybe people out there who are genuinely wondering how I prepared myself. Well to be honest… I just kind of tensed and winced like a small child who is about to receive an injection, then waited until it was over.
*Probably, I have no peer reviewed research to back that up