#36 Sick – ‘The Right Way – Again’

In Durham, England, there used to be a wood carving in the trees by the river. It was 12 separate trees, and from the correct angle you would see them all come together to make a 3D picture of the last supper. Any other position and they all just looked like trees.

Perspective is a wonderful thing. Wildly underrated and definitely underused. Unfortunately it is difficult to get your hands on, firstly because it is a metaphysical concept, but secondly you need a good variety of vantage points. I spend my days doing largely the same thing, in largely the same places. That means getting naturally occurring, and different vantage points is rare. So to find it requires action and thought. But who wants to think anymore? Thinking is old news, the kids are all about Pogs and Tamagotchis these days*.

Today I didn’t have to go very far to find some perspective, because a big slab of it landed right in my lap. Just like a month ago, I am sick again. The right way, obviously. I am sniffing, coughing, sneezing and quite flu-y. Now, just prior to this real actual sickness, I had a short sharp unimportant, not-a-real sickness, depressive episode*.

I didn’t recognise it at first, but the signs were there. I was spending most of my time in bed and my apartment became messy, untidy, or even dirty. I would come home from work in disbelief. As if a burglar had just broken in to leave dirty dishes in every room* and throw my clothes all over. Showering became optional, as did eating regularly. In summary, my self-care was pretty abysmal.

But I thought being depressed was just about being sad Mindfump? No. Just no. Nope.

Something interesting happened today though*. I woke up without feeling depressed, no symptoms. In fact, I would go as far as to say I felt good. I got out of bed, I cooked, I showered, I cleaned my whole apartment and organised my blog.

+10 points for self-care.

So with todays lack of depression I was naturally rewarded with the flu. Unlike depression though, the flu didn’t inhibit me. And this is where the trees aligned. You see, from a certain angle I just looked like a lanky and lazy 28 year old English person who couldn’t get out of bed to look after himself – and then felt guilty about it. But from the correct angle, I am actually a lanky 28 year old English person who can look after himself – when he has anything but depression.

Perspective has enlightened me today. The guilt is gone and I am feeling much better. But if someone wouldn’t mind popping to the shops for me to grab a pint of milk and a loaf, that would be great. Oh, and the bins need taking out as well, thanks. I’m sick, remember? Got to stay in bed.

Mindfump.

*They’re not.

*Sarcasm.

*I only have two rooms.

*Normally it doesn’t

 

 

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27 Comments

  1. S. Hansen

    If your description of a short sharp episode of depression doesn’t describe me recently, I don’t know does.
    I have a pint of milk in the fridge I probably wont use, not sure why I bought it, I hardly ever use milk. Shall I send it to you and hope it’s not cheese by the time it gets there?
    Would like to hope for your swift recovery, but what if flu is staving off the depression?

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    1. Mindfump

      I like cheese more than I like milk so that is a result either way. Well either way the depression is at bay and I can function with the flu. The same cannot be said for depression – lets hope you are well out of sight of the short sharp episode as well. We’ve had our fair share of depression now.

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  2. Rachel Bob

    Hope you feel better soon. I have bronchitis and some weird stomach bug… otherwise, I would totally come take care of your shopping and what not…well and if I lived in the same country as you. But if it’s not one thing (depression), it’s another (flu) or in my case it’s everything all at once….migraine, interstitial cystitis (aka painful bladder syndrome) flare up, chronic bronchitis and a stomach bug. Go us! #winning

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      1. Rachel Bob

        lol it’s okay. It’s kind of just my life. I keep on trucking. Well… as much as I can right now. But the flu is terrible too. So let’s not discount that. It can really wipe you out and make you feel like crap.

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          1. Rachel Bob

            Aw- I didn’t even list all my ailments! LOL. No seriously… I didn’t. But I am glad to make you feel better 🙂 … It can always worse. I tell myself that all the time. It’s how I get through it all.

            Kick that flu’s butt! And the depression for that matter. Screw depression. I have clinical depression so I completely feel that. It can be an uncontrollable beast…rawr!

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          2. Rachel Bob

            I like to think of myself as a cautious pessimist. Which might be similar to a cautious optimist…but allows me to be more pessimistic about stuff but also gives me the flexibility to look on the bright side once in awhile so I can say things like, “it could always be worse”

            I also like being the “it could always be worse” example for my friends. I cultivate a group of friends with chronic illnesses but generally speaking mine are the worst and yea that sucks…but hey at least my friends can look at me and think, ‘hey it could always be worse…I could be her’ haha. That’s how I give back lol

            Are you feeling better yet??

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          3. Rachel Bob

            Well I am Jewish..much like Jesus lol…I’ll just leave it at that for now lol

            I’m glad you’re kind of maybe feeling betterish…possibly. Why tough day? Did something happen?

            I’m doing better..well my stomach bug is resolved! Thank goodness! All my other 9,999 illnesses are iffy at best lol

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  3. Joonas Kopponen

    I do have some food I could not eat in my fridge and freezer. I could send them over but they might have evolved into sentient beings on the way… Not sure if we should risk that.

    I am glad you are functioning better now and in a way feeling much better! 🙂 Flu is the friend right now. Don’t wash your hands! 😛

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