Going to the cinema is not one of my favourite past times. This is not because I dislike movies or have some deep dissatisfaction for spending extortionate amounts of money on sounds and moving images*. I actually think it is down to Jesus. Well, I should clarify that by saying, any religious figure, or even any symbol in general.
You see, one area of conflict in the modern world is symbolism. We create symbols*, we build them up and we defend them. The problem arises when someone happens to have no affiliation, care, or personal connection to the symbol you hold so dear (Jesus, Manchester United, the America Flag or your new favourite movie). That same person comes along and eats crisps loudly during the tender moment, slurps their drink at the height of the tension and then makes fart noises during the sex scene.
And that is the problem of cinema for me. I really love film, so much so that each great film I watch becomes a symbol and often a catalyst for motivation, determination, inspiration and my good friend mania.
I didn’t understand mania when I was younger, so my feelings of invincibility after watching Karate Kid 3 seemed so real. Maybe it was, maybe I have wasted my potential as a ninja – we will never know*.
The mania is real right now though. I feel energetic, focused, inspired and single-minded. All my goals which lay dormant for weeks, months and years, now appear so clear and, better yet, reachable. Then there’s the old goals, my ‘getting through depression‘ goals. They’ve gone. I now laugh in the face of a goal which is to ‘wash my plate after using’. Now I feel like I am only one screen play away from an Oscar. Of course it is a screen play I haven’t written yet, but sure I can write a screenplay in a matter of weeks, no sweat.
Mania has arrived. I am in La La Land, quite literally. My, now, ex-girlfriend and I watched the movie at the cinema tonight, and of course some Austrians talked the whole way through and a woman ate kettle chips at every sad moment. Still though, I feel like I can do anything. I probably could all along, but now it seems possible. I must get started on that screenplay – Oscars are in 6 days!
*OK, that’s part of the reason.
*Sorry religious people.They are man made.
*A true ninja would never reveal themself.