#42 Déjà Vu – ‘And His Annoying Half-Brother’

I’ve seen the movie Groundhog Day. I’ve seen the movie Groundhog Day. And that is the second best revelation in this post (and the best joke). Bill Murray goes to a place he doesn’t want to go, to do something he doesn’t really want to do, with people he doesn’t really want to be with. Then the day happens over and over and over again until he finds a way to break the cycle. And if you have seen Groundhog Day, you should find some irony in hearing about it again.

For 3 days in a row now I have gone to bed late and woken up early. Each day I woke up with a headache, a sore throat, nausea, sniffles, hunger and dehydration. The first thing I did each day was take some paracetamol, a vitamin tablet, eat some chocolate and have a coffee. Then I’d roll around, complain to my girlfriend and curse my terrible life for the length of time it took for the painkillers to kick in.

All in all, a very good way to look after yourself when you’re sick*. I must say, it is very convenient that the remedy to my sickness happens to exactly mirror my normal diet and behaviour.

Today was no different, I woke up, had the ailments, had the ‘remedies’ and got on with my day. But just like Bill Murray, I have the feeling there is a way out. Yes, I will overcome the flu, but I’m talking more than that. My life; it is turning into one long day, and the same day. Today there were glimmers, and several instances of ‘Presque Vu’, the rarely used half-brother of Déjà vu. Presque vu in french literally means ‘almost seen’, and it is the feeling of almost having an epiphany. 

Now periods of mania typically come with delusions of grandeur, so I am used to this. But today I seemed to have had several moments of ‘Presque vu’. I just know there is a way out of this repetition, the constant sickness, the mental health problems, the money problems, the small apartment and the unfulfilling job. I feel like my mind is desperately trying to show me there is potential for greatness, and that there are great ideas in my mind – it wants me to find them. I want to find them, but… I found a Schokoschnecke today!*



*The first best revelation in today’s post.


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          1. Mindfump

            Now that I have the schokoschnecke, nothing can hurt me. How are you doing though? I’ve yet to come across any of your potential posts in my reader yet… if I don’t see them I will go analog and write out your website letter by letter and check there.

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          2. Mindfump

            Glad to hear you are well though, or ‘not bad’ I should say. Sleep is but an eventual certainty. It will come. Hmmm not sure why I am not getting your things in my reader anymore. I shall look into it. I’m heading over to the post now.

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  1. Buffy Devane

    I have nothing to add that contains either wit or wisdom… other than to say “well written”.
    That said, I appreciate that ANY open Door of Possibility leading to beyond the Vicious Circular Cycle Track of Misery is to be celebrated… 🙂

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      1. Buffy Devane

        Ah, me too, mon ami… preferably instructions on a loud Tannoy system(!)

        Please know that, though you’re not in a great place sometimes, you’re also in the company of some of the best of people. 🙂

        And you’re most welcome. 😀

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        1. S. Hansen

          Well in an effort to find someone who understands my obscure gamer reference… I will remind you still have instructions to hidden treasure. It’s just that the guy I bought them from looked pretty shifty and I may have been scammed because they look like dance steps.

          One day someone is going to see this and shout the game at me. And I will have accomplished my life goal.

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          1. S. Hansen

            Haha, no worries.
            I did once have a teacher who understood a reference I made. It confused him and he had to double check I wasn’t older than he thought.
            But mostly my insult sword fighting battles remain something I can only practice with my siblings.

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  2. Joonas Kopponen

    Die Schokoschnecke hat endlich nach der langen Reise gefunden worden! Ich bin froh, das die Schnecken sehr lecker waren. 🙂

    You will uncover the potential in your mind one day! 🙂 Step by step, I wish you strenght and clarity for the journey! Was a pleasant reading experience again, the post and the comments here.

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