#58 Lego – ‘Tentative Steps Out Of Depression’

When I grew up we lived in a small 2 up 2 down terraced mining house in small town in the North East of England. But wait, it gets worse – I also had to go to bed at 7pm. To be fair though I was about 6 years old at the time*. However, as a growing northern boy I would often get hungry after I went to bed, some people might refer to this feeling as being greedy.

So what is a greedy northern 6 year old boy to do?

OK, decision made. Up I’d get, careful not to wake my brother who is about 1 meter away. Although if he did wake up it would then turn into a Spec Ops mission, of which I would need take orders for. 3 Digestives, a Wagon wheel, a Babybel and, if available, 2 packets of Dairy Lee Lunchables.

Orders in, and it was now time for the most dangerous part of the operation.

This last week or so has been my worst since blogging. You probably already know that because I have literally mentioned it every day that I’ve blogged, and being a daily blogger that means it is, well, daily. But today I come with good news! I am slowly re-emerging from this period, and beginning to test the waters of every day life once more. I don’t want to rush back into things, as it may just well be a false start, and I’ve certainly had a few of those in the past. So I start small, I try and get all the basics out of the way; laundry, showering, getting up, cooking and so on. Then it is time to try more demanding activities, I check the blog – ok, that wasn’t so bad – Let me read some blogs, ok lets try writing… and on it goes. Slowly but surely and as cautiously as you can imagine.

So here I am emerging from the darkness. My eyes are adjusting… to the bright hall lamp outside the room.

I slowly climb out of bed, and I can hear the TV downstairs – Shooting Stars, I think. So I’m not worried about noise of footsteps, but I am worried about standing on a bit of Lego barefoot and then being faced with the impossible task of concealing the pain. So there I go, avoiding the Lego, stepping over the Stretch Armstrong and out into the bright hallway.

It should be noted at this point that the layout of the house was such that you could go down the stairs and access the kitchen without having to go into the living room. Naturally had this not been the case, I would of just had to sleep at night, and who did that in the 90s?

I creep down the stairs and into the kitchen. No lights. The sitting room door was made of glass and the sudden beam of light would of given the game away. The Digestives were up high, that meant I had to climb up on the counter. I get up as quietly as possible. My brother is waiting upstairs patiently, expectantly even. I’m shimmying across to the biscuit cupboard. Then I hit a snag, unbeknownst to me there was a napkin left out on the kitchen counter, and I didn’t see it.

I step on the napkin, my foot slips off the edge and I smash my face off the side of the counter – splitting my lip in half.

Needless to say I didn’t get the loot.

And if that moment 22 years ago taught me anything, it is that when I am coming out of a particular dark period of depression; I shouldn’t rush myself. I need to look out for the Lego, look out for the napkins, keep my eyes and ears alert to potential parental movements. If I do all of this, I might just get my rewards. I’m talking Babybels, digestives, Wagon Wheels and not only that I as a little bonus I will get… Stomach ache, probably. Eating late at night is really not recommended.


*I now go to bed upwards of 8pm.



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      1. S. Hansen

        We’ll make perfect midnight snack companions. You can have my gross rubbery babybels if I can have your wagon wheels :p
        Though I wouldn’t dare take anything from mothers well stocked kitchen. You take your life in your hands with that kind of game.

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        1. Mindfump

          Not sure if that is a euphemism or not. But that is true, although it was a definitely worth the split lip of which I still carry the scar. My mother was very sympathetic, so what I am saying is – split your lip and you can get away with anything.

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          1. S. Hansen

            I didn’t intend for there to be a euphemism in there. I’m not sure what the euphemism you’re seeing is… but I won’t tell you you’re wrong and kick you while you’re down :p
            As we learned with the biting a chunk out of my tongue and smarties incident, my mother has a rather blase approach to offspring injuries. Though that’s nothing compared to my dad. I split my chin open once and without knowing it at the time I asked dad if it looked okay. I lifted my chin to show him (stretching the split further) and he just said I should go see mum and keep my chin down…

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          2. S. Hansen

            Umm no… gotta build character and all that. It didn’t do me any harm to think nothing of injuries. Probably had a more fun childhood for having not cared about getting injuries.
            But I might own a pack of superhero plasters in case they break a bone I guess…

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          1. ibizagoldgirl

            You’re on the same time as ibiza …. wish I were there! Well hello tomorrow I’m still in yesterday.
            There are so many things I want to write, so many ideas and thoughts to have, time ticks on by…. what shall we be receiving next? Am I allowed to ask what posts you’re drafting??

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          2. Mindfump

            It is great that you have so many ideas! Looking forward to checking them out. Anything you’re particularly excited about? As for me, well I don’t know. I don’t write drafts. My daily posts are written on the spot, and are just about my day or thoughts, so no planning needed. As for other things, I haven’t had new ideas for a while. Although I will be stopping the Brain Reviews tomorrow. I feel like it has gone on a little long. I have kindly been asked to write things for other blogs so I may have to do something for them, but again I will just write on the spot. I just trust something will come out.

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          3. ibizagoldgirl

            WoW! I am so super impressed and excited. I’m going out tonight so watch this space for more of my ibiza inspired posts and less of the sad, feeling low type…
            I very much enjoyed the brain reviews and will get involved the next time.

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  1. Miriam K's Art

    Sad to hear you’ve been having a hard time. Baby steps is always the best I think. Courage my friend courage. Maybe buy some wagon wheels if you’re out. I need my sleep too. Sleep helps and then the next day is brand new…a new adventure…a new challenge! Take care.

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      1. Rebecca

        Ya it aint the Lego I’m worried about 🙂 It is the stumbling and falling into the abyss. So I will sit quietly in my dark little room controlling my hunger, thank you very much. Both physically and emotionally! But I peeped through the keyhole after reading your post…. there is hope for me yet!

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      1. summerSHINES

        Oh fuck. Hartlepool sounds grim! I wasn’t born up here but it’s my adopted forever home. I grew up in the north west and am scared of southerners 😲😱🙈🙈🙈 lol 😂

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          1. Mindfump

            Thank you 🙂 it is very flattering for you to ask, as I feel very unqualified to answer. But I would say always be yourself, write about things you genuinely care about and not only what you think people want to hear/read. Be proactive, talk to people (which you seem to be good at already!) and take time to interact with people who visit your blog. Finally I’d say be patient, whatever your aims for blogging are unlikely to be achieved quickly, which is why it is important you write about things you like. As at first you’ll be mostly writing things a lot of people won’t see. My first 20 posts averaged less than 10 views each. I hope that helps! I’m always here if you need anything and just do what you love, I’ll definitely try and check out your posts 🙂

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  2. carmelkarmablog

    Great blog. I like your take on mental health. I hate using or seeing the word mental illness- its archaic to me. I think we are all doing the best we can and some people are just more open or honest or self aware & brave to acknowledge the psyche.Great job

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