Flight of the Navigator. There’s two things that resonate when I think of that movie. Firstly of my childhood; sitting up until maybe 9 or even 10pm on those rare, but special occasions. As a child there is something mythical about the post bedtime phase of the day, and for some reason staying up to watch Flight of the Navigators was one such occasion. I loved that movie, but a quick search just showed that it got 6.7 on IMDB. Given my immovable desire to agree with others it means I can’t like it anymore*.
The second Flight of the Navigators resonation* comes in the form a conversational saver, changer,
boy in a manger. You know when a conversation rolls into the area of disinterest, where one person is talking but everyone else is losing interest? Or when the conversation just starts dying a death and everyone can see it gliding to an awkward standstill, everyone can see it, but everyone seems powerless to prevent it? So everyone just looks at the floor and pretends to chuckle at a previous moment. After a deep sigh and a wide-eyed look around it is time to drop in the secret signal though; ‘Sooooo, anyone seen Flight of the Navigator then?’
It was a running joke, and one I must say that sounds way funnier in real life. But it broke the awkwardness and if nothing else provided a real chuckle. You’re welcome to it.
Today is a ‘Sooooo, anyone seen Flight of the Navigator then?’ moment.
Having never experienced a death in the family before, I was not sure what to expect from myself emotionally. As it turns out, there has been mixed emotions. Sadness is there for sure, I’m sad for my family. There is also guilt, not that I wasn’t there, but that I don’t feel upset, and I haven’t cried. The only way I can truly sum my mood up is one of disinterest.
All of the small things* have dissipated into even smaller, more insignificant things. This sudden disinterest in work, money, blogging, or anything in between has left me in immediate limbo. I was worried the sadness for my family would drop me into a depressive state, but if anything it has just proved to me that depression is not sadness and that depression, is in and of itself. Disinterest it is then.
Soooo, anyone seen Flight of the Navigator?
*I have zero desire to agree with anyone ever, even now, whatever you’re thinking, I disagree.
*You could not even imagine my surprise when spell checker didn’t come up with a squiggly line for that one. It is a real word.
*Thank you Blink 182
P.S I would like to say a big thank you for all the kind messages on Facebook, Twitter and on the blog. It means a lot and reaffirms how many cool people I have met on here.
P.S.S As for the project ‘PersonifyME’ it is still running and thank you to everyone for all the submissions so far. My mood has been such that I haven’t wanted to do anything. All entries will go up eventually though.