#137 Anxious – ‘Resetting Bad Sleep Patterns’

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Sonic and Hedgehog ruled my life, or rather I should say, me and my brother’s lives, for a solid 3 year period. It is the time I developed the vast majority of my team working abilities and also where I should have seen the future of the gaming industry*. Anywho, me always as tales, and he always as Sonic, our goal was always the same; get to the final airplane level. Unfortunately for us, we were only small children and therefore had to do what our masters parents told us and that sometimes included leaving the house. As it was the time before saving a game was invented, we would very safely and secretly leave the console on for endless hours whilst we were out doing family things.

We would return and the console would naturally have a temperature of somewhere between a red dwarf star and a neutron star, but we were not discouraged. Occasionally though the game would freeze; time for a reset. Simple, turn it off, cartridge out, give it a blow, maybe a shake, put it back in and turn it back on. Reset complete.

That was pretty much the standard reset procedure for any device at that time.

Then, Microsoft came along and took the fun out of everything with their ‘Ctl+Alt+Delete’ feature, obviously for a full hard reset you still had to hold down the power button but it just wasn’t the same anymore. There is nothing more unsatisfactory* than resetting something via a screen – the rules are simple the on/off switch should always be physical.

I have neither a physical nor non-physical reset button, I’m left out to dry on that front. I could use one on the brain, not quite ‘Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mindless’ level but just a little nudge to get my sleep back in order. I want to have a good sleep schedule and I want to wake up at a reasonable hour but every time I try to do it I manage to talk myself out of the idea or convince myself I don’t have to get up – which I don’t, that is the problem.

I work later in the day which means before 2pm I don’t need to be awake. And like a child who has been told they can stay up late I get all kiddy, only to then fight through about 5 hours of tiredness for no reason. That means instead of waking up at 8, 9 or 10, I start pushing it to 12. If there’s one thing you don’t want to do in life, it is push 12 of anything; 12 lions, a 12-year-old girl or thirty pieces of silver into the hands of one of the 12 disciples.

Pushing 12 is just fraught with danger.

So how do you combat this?* Well don’t trust Judas for one, but also go with an aggressive strategy. I went to bed at 3:30am last night and woke up when my girlfriend left for work at 7:30am. It put me in a comatose state for around 4 hours but I am confident I will see the fruits of my labour tomorrow. If I don’t its ok because I’m quite picky with fruit and I don’t have to wake up for anything anyway – damn!


*If I didn’t want to play I would sit and watch my brother for hours, and get disappointed if he didn’t want to continue. That is basically the roadmap of Twitch and Youtube right now.

*There are lots of more unsatisfactory things to do that reset a device with a soft button.



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  1. Alex R Carver

    I could do with a reset button for sleep as well. My problem, though, is that although I’m easily able to get up at 9am, despite having no reason to do so, I’m have real difficulty getting to sleep, sometimes I’m awake until 3,4 or even 5 and beyond.
    I’m not up till those hours because I want to be, I just can’t get to sleep, which means I’m tired for a large portion of the day and I have to fight the urge to nap mid-afternoon. I don’t always win that fight, and that just makes getting to sleep at night harder.
    It’s a never-ending cycle/battle to which a reset button seems the only solution.

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      1. Alex R Carver

        For me it seems as if the days where I wouldn’t mind staying up are the few occasions when lack of sleep seems to catch up with me and I crash early. My brain and body are very annoying and contradictory, when I want to sleep, I can’t, and when I want to be awake, I’m falling asleep.

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        1. Paul Green

          Some major communication issues between mind and body there. I feel you though, some days I feel like throwing loads of paper in the air and shaking my head in disbelief. Hopefully you get some respite soon.


  2. Shilheneth

    I would really like a good sleeping rhythm again but the same problem.. I don’t -have- to get up early. So the rhythm is now about from 5 am to 1pm. ._. Oh hi Paul, been a while, been depressed, glad you are doing better it seems, I remember reading.through email one post like ‘fraud’ where you were doing better for a longer period. Hope things have mainly continued on that path?

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      1. Shilheneth

        I’m happy to be received back. 🙂 I will be making one post today at least, let’s see where it goes. I am feeling quite stuck and don’t have faith in my writing skills or any others really right now but the blog and especially you and S.Hansen have been great so I want to try.


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