199 // Where Does Mental Health Blogging End?

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1/2 a cup of Almond Butter, 1/2 cup of maple syrup and 1/2 a cup of cocoa powder. I should have known really, but I’m like the kid who has been told fire is hot, but is too stubborn to believe it. And that is just part of the recipe for the vegan chocolate caramel square I made. Things don’t improve with the other ingredients, of which there is about 14 jars of coconut oil and all the salt in the Dead Sea.

Don’t get me wrong, there are denser things in the universe. Donald Trumps brain being one of those things, but it caught me by surprise. This little chocolate caramel square, looking so innocent and delicious, wiped me out. With approximately 74,000 calories per square centimeter, my poor digestive system couldn’t quite cope with the work load and sent me into what is commonly termed as a ‘food coma’.

This thing, which should bring joy, happiness and energy, actually brought me as close to a real coma as I ever hope to get. Even my mental illness didn’t want to get involved, it sat this one out.

I bought a new gadget on Sunday which is also supposed to give me joy, happiness and energy. It is a digital drawing pad, and it was bought with the idea to be more creative with the artwork on the blog each day. Unfortunately though, whether catalyst or coindence, it comes at a time when I have very low motivation to write, create or draw. I’m in what is commonly called a ‘creativity coma’.

The only difference here though, is that I don’t really know the ingredients and I doubt a long sleep will see it off. My interaction online has been low and is getting lower – any lower and I’ll pass Donald Trumps approval ratings! (Ba dum tish)*. Yesterday I was travelling back to Ireland all through the night, which meant I wasn’t able to write, but it was a welcome break, as I have been forcing it recently anyway.

If I ate that vegan chocolate caramel square every day I know I’ll eventually get fat, have diabetes and sleep alot. I’m not sure what or where this diet of blogging is leading me and, for someone who likes certainty, that bothers me. My enthusiasm for things rises and falls dramatically over time, and I’m sure the mean average regarding creativity and blogging would be in a healthy place, but the current figure is low.

Maybe I need a new recipe, as the new toy I purchased has so far not been a catalyst, and if theres one thing I want, it is a cat – they’re so cute.

Paul Green

*As a measure of creativity, when an easy target like Donald Trump is the butt of the joke you the know the tank is empty. 


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  1. S. Hansen

    If a thing is doing you more harm than good in theory you should stop it…
    I get those creativity slumps all the time, it definitely shows in my blog posts and that bums me out even more. Maybe take a break?
    Though I would miss your daily posts :p


  2. Lindsay M Davis

    Personal experience has shown me that cats may not help us be productive (they’re so cute, how could you spend any time NOT squeeing over them?!), but they will always be by your side when you’re productive.

    Seriously. Between my two cats, I rarely have a moment alone with my laptop. I pretend they’re drawn to my creative genius, but I know they just want the glowing box to warm their bottoms.

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  3. Anonymous

    Food for thought? I agree everyone’s entitled to a sabbatical (or mini city break). Is this the point where you need the blogging less than others? I for one love your creative genius and would miss the daily uplift but I suppose I could re read your blogs to ‘tide me by’ buying me precious time to I wean myself off and mourn the loss. It’s a matter for yourself, personally I have had to make difficult sacrifices/adjustments in my life which ranged from the sublime to the ridiculous but the moral of the story is You do what is right for YOU. Avid fan

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  4. intenttowin

    I buy new things to help inspire me. For instance, my old windows laptop that I gave hundreds of dollars for a few years ago is basically a paperweight because it runs Windows XP and an upgrade to Windows 7 made is painfully crawling slow. So I decided a new toy was in order. So I ordered this wonderful $149 notepad with Windows 10 and gave $12 for a 256GB microSD card. So for about $200 total tax and free shipping I have a wonderful new blue notepad. Is it helping. Not sure yet, but I’m trying not to give up. If this isn’t productive for you, you shouldn’t force it, but if it is any help at all…try to find the help in it. OK?


  5. mytenantdepression

    It’s ok to take breaks or change paths! Listen to your gut, what is it saying (apart from overdosing on the sugar from the vegan choc caramel square!;)).
    And as one person commented, if something is doing you more harm than good, or is stressing you more than giving you a smile, than it might just be time for a change…The change doesn’t need to be permanent though…
    All the best! x


  6. unironedman

    Ah, the old Trumpety Trump. The new Godwin’s Law. That’s ok, coz your gags are way above the norm for the average slur on the Tangerine Man Child. I have a Wacom tablet, which is I think what you are getting at. Handy at times for certain jobs, but actually not necessarily as a creative tool. I’d say sketch and doodle away with the old school materials, take a pic (or scan) and upload. I think tablets are just another piece of tech to get in the way of creativity. And as others are saying, blog if you want to, or take a break if you need to. I would imagine it’s a good outlet. It’s when it becomes a demand that it might be time to sit it out for a bit. Blog for you, not for us. Well, okay, maybe a little for us 😉


  7. Anne Clare

    For what it’s worth, my husband periodically ‘cuts me off’ from computer/social media time- I find that my own mental health deteriorates a bit if I spend too much time in the virtual world. I tend to get too wound up in external validations (Hey! I got another ‘like!’) and forget about my real relationships and the things that make me intrinsically happy. Usually my creativity takes off post-break…plus I’m much less stressed out 🙂
    Here’s hoping you find your balance.
    I don’t generally do vegan, but that recipe sounds AMAZING. It may be a baking day…

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  8. K.L. Allendoerfer

    I work in spurts, always have. So all those people who insist that you have to write, or blog, or practice your instrument, or go for a run, or whatever, EVERY SINGLE EFFING DAY tend to dismiss me. But I don’t know about that. I’m still here.


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